I remember March, correlated with what I have written down, as being just as crazy a month as January/February. The difference was perhaps just that I had now learned to stand up, be under maximum pressure, unresponsive, be in constant panic attacks, but at the same time could say to myself that if I'm going to die from this fuc.... shit,...

When we entered February, things really started to go downhill. I went from experiencing stress and anxiety attacks to being in one big collapse every single day. When I opened my eyes, I had no idea how bad my day was going to be, but I was prepared for it...

January is more or less gone from my memory. It was a month where I had to physically figure out what state I was in. I was completely overwhelmed and unable to be around other people or have a normal conversation. I have previously broken both arms and a...